when will my suffering end...
the kettle is on. i'm making tea. it's not even dark yet, but hell, i need to get an early start.
i have a paper that's due tomorrow. it's silly how much papers i have to write. okay, it's not really the quantity, but the quality. first it has to be grammatically correct (hahaha - me, grammatically correct, that's really a laugh), then i have to use correct APA style on these papers, and then, i have to have sources to back up my arguments. it's so fucking tiring.
so for this issue paper, i need four sources. actually, that's getting a bit ahead of myself. i need to find an issue to write about. that's really the most problematic of anything. so i'm aimming for a 5:00pm start to this paper.
right now, i'm reading some of the assigned readings for next week. i'm taking a little break to blog (my professor said that daily journal writing is useful).
one of the kitties stabbed me with his claws last night and it hurts like a bitch. no wonder i don't like cats, they cause me pain. of course, i cause them pain too, but that's okay cuz i do it out of love. :)
next weekend is going to be crazy. luckily, i don't have any assigned papers to do so that's a nice reprieve. saturday's cecil's birthday party, sunday, i have the dolphin run, then joshua's birthday party and, AND, here's the big one... it's deidra's birthday on sunday. i need to go get gifts and plan something for her later that night.
i'm getting a little sick of my classes. i don't feel i have anything to offer intellectually in class discussions. i can't really retain what i read during the week previous. i feel everyone knows a lot more than i do, and i suspect that's because they actually work in the profession. speaking of which, i should really look for a job because my bank account is going to be depleted by the end of this month. i love when the slacker me is in complete control of my life.
i really hate the fact that i procrastinate on all my papers. i feel so hateful when i do that. i hate life, i hate cats, i hate people. i hate staying up late because i have to finish the damn thing. at least i'm not such a slacker that i don't finish the papers on time. they might not be great, but at least they are done.
it's not really a good idea to drink two nights in a roll before a paper is due. i went over to mark's on friday and drank. then i went over to carlin's last night and drank. it would be totally heinous if i drank tonight. funny, but heinous. all this shit is causing me stress. i used to take pride in the fact that i like stress. it makes me feel alive. but then there's job stress and then there's stressing about livelihood. i mean shit, i've got bills to pay, and i'm not doing much about them. good one fran.
so that's my plan for today, read my readings, write my paper and in between, i'm going to watch tv from 8-10pm (american dreams and law and order: criminal intent). i think we're going to have to get tivo so i don't waste time during sundays to watch tv and have a paper due.
i love this song by midge ure called "reap the wild wind." it's comes on at times on my yahoo radio. it's so 80's without being overly 80's. i wish there were more of that great music nowadays instead of the shit they play on the radio like hilary duff and whatever the crap they are playing. i got some gift cards from friends for tower records and virgin megastore, but i can't really use them cuz there's nothing i feel like buying.
actually, next year, i'm going to request that people get me gift cards to amazon.com. that would help with all the textbook purchases. christ, i spent like $600 on books this semester. it's disgusting and i hate it. but i like the fact that i can mark all over the books and write worthless notes on them. yeah!
okay, i think the kettle is whistling and i'm going back to my reading. happy days.
i have a paper that's due tomorrow. it's silly how much papers i have to write. okay, it's not really the quantity, but the quality. first it has to be grammatically correct (hahaha - me, grammatically correct, that's really a laugh), then i have to use correct APA style on these papers, and then, i have to have sources to back up my arguments. it's so fucking tiring.
so for this issue paper, i need four sources. actually, that's getting a bit ahead of myself. i need to find an issue to write about. that's really the most problematic of anything. so i'm aimming for a 5:00pm start to this paper.
right now, i'm reading some of the assigned readings for next week. i'm taking a little break to blog (my professor said that daily journal writing is useful).
one of the kitties stabbed me with his claws last night and it hurts like a bitch. no wonder i don't like cats, they cause me pain. of course, i cause them pain too, but that's okay cuz i do it out of love. :)
next weekend is going to be crazy. luckily, i don't have any assigned papers to do so that's a nice reprieve. saturday's cecil's birthday party, sunday, i have the dolphin run, then joshua's birthday party and, AND, here's the big one... it's deidra's birthday on sunday. i need to go get gifts and plan something for her later that night.
i'm getting a little sick of my classes. i don't feel i have anything to offer intellectually in class discussions. i can't really retain what i read during the week previous. i feel everyone knows a lot more than i do, and i suspect that's because they actually work in the profession. speaking of which, i should really look for a job because my bank account is going to be depleted by the end of this month. i love when the slacker me is in complete control of my life.
i really hate the fact that i procrastinate on all my papers. i feel so hateful when i do that. i hate life, i hate cats, i hate people. i hate staying up late because i have to finish the damn thing. at least i'm not such a slacker that i don't finish the papers on time. they might not be great, but at least they are done.
it's not really a good idea to drink two nights in a roll before a paper is due. i went over to mark's on friday and drank. then i went over to carlin's last night and drank. it would be totally heinous if i drank tonight. funny, but heinous. all this shit is causing me stress. i used to take pride in the fact that i like stress. it makes me feel alive. but then there's job stress and then there's stressing about livelihood. i mean shit, i've got bills to pay, and i'm not doing much about them. good one fran.
so that's my plan for today, read my readings, write my paper and in between, i'm going to watch tv from 8-10pm (american dreams and law and order: criminal intent). i think we're going to have to get tivo so i don't waste time during sundays to watch tv and have a paper due.
i love this song by midge ure called "reap the wild wind." it's comes on at times on my yahoo radio. it's so 80's without being overly 80's. i wish there were more of that great music nowadays instead of the shit they play on the radio like hilary duff and whatever the crap they are playing. i got some gift cards from friends for tower records and virgin megastore, but i can't really use them cuz there's nothing i feel like buying.
actually, next year, i'm going to request that people get me gift cards to amazon.com. that would help with all the textbook purchases. christ, i spent like $600 on books this semester. it's disgusting and i hate it. but i like the fact that i can mark all over the books and write worthless notes on them. yeah!
okay, i think the kettle is whistling and i'm going back to my reading. happy days.
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