smack in the face of reality
in my previous post, i wrote that i hated spammers. well, after a couple of weeks commuting on the I10, i'm certain that the interstate is right up there with the spammers. seriously, what the hell are people during at 11am that they need to be on that fucking freeway? i have to admit though, that i really like the electric traffic signs (usually for amber alerts) that inform commuters how long it'll take to get to the 405 and the 110.
anyhoot, it's been a crazy week. it just flew by pretty quickly (except when i'm on the I10). work's been okay. yesterday, my boss took us to lunch. we weren't expecting him to pay, but he did. we went to bj's in westwood, a place i don't normally like to go to, but their clam chowder is actually pretty good. and they give you a pretty big bowl of it when you order the 1/2 sandwich and 1/2 soup meal. however, the roast beef sandwich i got left much to be desired. it was a bit dry and there's nothing worse than eating a dry sandwich (well, maybe driving on the I10). *snicker*
i can say for certain that my boss is a crazy man and a car enthusiast. when he heard that one of the student workers was driving his mother's jaguar, he got pretty excited (like creaming his pants excited). oh, speaking of cars... so the bmw dealership fixed his car and he got it back on thursday. luckily, it was still under warranty because it ended up costing about $8k to fix (according to my boss). insane.
so this is the crazy part. he was telling us about how he was forced out of ucla because he spoke his mind. normally, that isn't such a bad thing, but he's the type of guy who would cuss you out regardless of who you are. fuck this and shit that. in a way, being able to stand up for what you think is right is a good attribute. but, burning bridges is pretty bad, regardless of what vocation you're in. he said while he was a post-doc, he told his boss to shove his letter of recommendation up his ass. "fuck you!" all this because his boss wanted him to come in on sunday to work in his lab.
and i thought i was bad.
but as a boss, he's pretty good. he has a hands-off approach, which i really like. granted, i'm not good at being a self-starter, but it's worse if he was micro-managing me. i would be really resentful.
after work wednesday, i decided to drop by majany's (mark, jay, tony's) since the I10 was bad (yes, this is a re-accuring theme). i wasn't planning to have dinner, but after gordon came, we headed out to this japanese place in culver city. it wasn't too bad food-wise and it was nice hanging out with some friends. before and after dinner, we played some poker, tournament style. i busted tony (self-proclaim poker genius) out twice, and won the after-dinner tournament. poker is fun, but i can never put in more than $5 for a game.
it's strange not seeing rob at mjr's anymore. he's on a soul-searching trip to south america and southeast asia. i really have a lot of admiration for him for being able to get out of his comfort zone and travel to foreign countries without any qualms. deidra would be the first person to tell you that getting me to travel is like moving mountains. it's not so much i don't like to travel, but i always have these issues with going to foreign countries. if it's not my GI problems, then i feel like i'm going to get rob and killed in these places.
don't worry, i'm not talking myself out of going on our european honeymoon. i'm looking forward to doing a bit of traveling with deidra. unfortunately, the planning process is a bitch and i'm not enjoying it very much.
so yeah, with rob on his trip, julia (the girlfriend) is feeling a bit out of sorts. all of us definitely miss rob very much, but i think it's more difficult for her since she LOVES the guy! if you're reading this julia, feel free to call me up for a chat. i hope you'll be alright. and just think, in a couple of months, you'll see rob again and you can have some doking back in your life.
school is going okay. i still need to find a student affairs job so i can actually start working on my fieldwork hours. i need to work on a couple of cover letters for a part-time job at the school of social work. pain in the ass, but a necessary evil.
i miss hanging out at starbucks. i can only do so on my off days now. i'm suppose to work on last week's journal entry but it's going a bit slow (especially with blogging and checking out the college football and mlb scores). then i have to start reading for this week's classes, which isn't too bad since most of the articles and book chapters are pretty interesting.
my parents called me yesterday. i haven't spoken to them in about three days (yeah, yeah three days, big whoop). anyway, my mum was telling me how she met some woman at starbucks (alexandra house) who's from seattle and works at one of hk's international schools. that got them a bit excited about how after i get my masters degree, i can also work at one of these schools.
deidra and i talked about it, and if it makes sense financially for me to go back to hk to work while she stays here to finish up her psych.d degree, we would do it. if i haven't said so, i think it's really admirable for her to work with me on this. i know it'll be really difficult for the both of us but i really think this will work. after a couple of years, we can both be working in hk and once we make enough money, we can go back to the states. granted, there's a lot of research left to do, but since i won't get the degree until next fall, there's still time. and, anyway, i was planning to work a year here after graduating so i get say i have some experience in the field.
a selling point for this plan is that during holidays, we can go travelling in asia, which i'm sure, is something she'd love to do.
at certain points this week, i got a bit depressed when thinking about our future. i shouldn't say, "our future" since that implies some sort of marital issue. but more like my career and such. even though i know what i have to do and what i (think) want to do, it just seems like it's so far out of reach. i feel like i'm at a point where i should already have a career and already be starting a family. time is moving so slowly (and yet it isn't). school is taking forever it seems like. i'm in such a rush to make a living. it's laughable how several years ago, that thought would have never crossed my mind.
the stress of growing older.
don't worry, i'll be back to normal in a couple of days. it's just the way i am. the child inside of me vs. facing reality. i wonder if this is why binge drinking seems so good to me right now. hahaha.
anyhoot, it's been a crazy week. it just flew by pretty quickly (except when i'm on the I10). work's been okay. yesterday, my boss took us to lunch. we weren't expecting him to pay, but he did. we went to bj's in westwood, a place i don't normally like to go to, but their clam chowder is actually pretty good. and they give you a pretty big bowl of it when you order the 1/2 sandwich and 1/2 soup meal. however, the roast beef sandwich i got left much to be desired. it was a bit dry and there's nothing worse than eating a dry sandwich (well, maybe driving on the I10). *snicker*
i can say for certain that my boss is a crazy man and a car enthusiast. when he heard that one of the student workers was driving his mother's jaguar, he got pretty excited (like creaming his pants excited). oh, speaking of cars... so the bmw dealership fixed his car and he got it back on thursday. luckily, it was still under warranty because it ended up costing about $8k to fix (according to my boss). insane.
so this is the crazy part. he was telling us about how he was forced out of ucla because he spoke his mind. normally, that isn't such a bad thing, but he's the type of guy who would cuss you out regardless of who you are. fuck this and shit that. in a way, being able to stand up for what you think is right is a good attribute. but, burning bridges is pretty bad, regardless of what vocation you're in. he said while he was a post-doc, he told his boss to shove his letter of recommendation up his ass. "fuck you!" all this because his boss wanted him to come in on sunday to work in his lab.
and i thought i was bad.
but as a boss, he's pretty good. he has a hands-off approach, which i really like. granted, i'm not good at being a self-starter, but it's worse if he was micro-managing me. i would be really resentful.
after work wednesday, i decided to drop by majany's (mark, jay, tony's) since the I10 was bad (yes, this is a re-accuring theme). i wasn't planning to have dinner, but after gordon came, we headed out to this japanese place in culver city. it wasn't too bad food-wise and it was nice hanging out with some friends. before and after dinner, we played some poker, tournament style. i busted tony (self-proclaim poker genius) out twice, and won the after-dinner tournament. poker is fun, but i can never put in more than $5 for a game.
it's strange not seeing rob at mjr's anymore. he's on a soul-searching trip to south america and southeast asia. i really have a lot of admiration for him for being able to get out of his comfort zone and travel to foreign countries without any qualms. deidra would be the first person to tell you that getting me to travel is like moving mountains. it's not so much i don't like to travel, but i always have these issues with going to foreign countries. if it's not my GI problems, then i feel like i'm going to get rob and killed in these places.
don't worry, i'm not talking myself out of going on our european honeymoon. i'm looking forward to doing a bit of traveling with deidra. unfortunately, the planning process is a bitch and i'm not enjoying it very much.
so yeah, with rob on his trip, julia (the girlfriend) is feeling a bit out of sorts. all of us definitely miss rob very much, but i think it's more difficult for her since she LOVES the guy! if you're reading this julia, feel free to call me up for a chat. i hope you'll be alright. and just think, in a couple of months, you'll see rob again and you can have some doking back in your life.
school is going okay. i still need to find a student affairs job so i can actually start working on my fieldwork hours. i need to work on a couple of cover letters for a part-time job at the school of social work. pain in the ass, but a necessary evil.
i miss hanging out at starbucks. i can only do so on my off days now. i'm suppose to work on last week's journal entry but it's going a bit slow (especially with blogging and checking out the college football and mlb scores). then i have to start reading for this week's classes, which isn't too bad since most of the articles and book chapters are pretty interesting.
my parents called me yesterday. i haven't spoken to them in about three days (yeah, yeah three days, big whoop). anyway, my mum was telling me how she met some woman at starbucks (alexandra house) who's from seattle and works at one of hk's international schools. that got them a bit excited about how after i get my masters degree, i can also work at one of these schools.
deidra and i talked about it, and if it makes sense financially for me to go back to hk to work while she stays here to finish up her psych.d degree, we would do it. if i haven't said so, i think it's really admirable for her to work with me on this. i know it'll be really difficult for the both of us but i really think this will work. after a couple of years, we can both be working in hk and once we make enough money, we can go back to the states. granted, there's a lot of research left to do, but since i won't get the degree until next fall, there's still time. and, anyway, i was planning to work a year here after graduating so i get say i have some experience in the field.
a selling point for this plan is that during holidays, we can go travelling in asia, which i'm sure, is something she'd love to do.
at certain points this week, i got a bit depressed when thinking about our future. i shouldn't say, "our future" since that implies some sort of marital issue. but more like my career and such. even though i know what i have to do and what i (think) want to do, it just seems like it's so far out of reach. i feel like i'm at a point where i should already have a career and already be starting a family. time is moving so slowly (and yet it isn't). school is taking forever it seems like. i'm in such a rush to make a living. it's laughable how several years ago, that thought would have never crossed my mind.
the stress of growing older.
don't worry, i'll be back to normal in a couple of days. it's just the way i am. the child inside of me vs. facing reality. i wonder if this is why binge drinking seems so good to me right now. hahaha.
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